I see you. Gritting your teeth, adjusting your tone and offering your thousandth do-over of the week.
And it pains me. Deeply. Because I've been there, and [honestly] I don't ever want to go back. You and your people are a reminder of the valley of the shadow of death we've walked through to arrive at our current place. Compared to where we've been, today feels like a walk. in. the. park.
Take heart friend! This too shall pass!... Or you will get used to it!
That may not be the kind of encouragement people cross-stitch on a pillow, but it's the truth. If I seem a little flinchy around your difficult kids it's not because I'm judging you. Or repulsed by their behavior. It's because seeing you there... I am seeing myself. Those old feelings of doubt and inadequacy are stirred up again. Being around your traumatized kids makes me feel traumatized. But it stirs up something new as well. Gratefulness. Maybe even a little pride. You're a reminder of some impossible days, but you're also a reminder of how far we've come. You make me want to run give my kids a high five, and a hug, and extra screen time!
Solidarity! One day all "this" will be in your rearview mirror, friend. So hug that lanky, tatted teenager tight. Whisper desperate prayers over your little night-owl who is finally asleep. And keep fighting the good fight.
"Weeping may tarry for the night, but joy comes with the morning."